Today, I just want to be open and honest. I’ve been busy blogging away and in the midst of that God started working on me. Because I realized that maybe through the craze of the holiday season, and the inspiration of the new year that I lost sight of why I was doing what I was doing. That maybe my desire to be known, grew larger then the desire to make him known. Maybe I got to focused on the numbers instead of the people. That if I have one person reach out to me that day, that’s greater then 1000 of numbers. Maybe I lost track of real life because the idea of my name being known became more appealing. Because maybe the idea of living a life where I lost my importance became terrifying, and maybe I just realized that I’m okay with only my future children remembering my life. Maybe it took a good prayer to realize that I lost track of the why of my life. That I’m not doing this to better myself, I’m doing this to better his kingdom.
So I’m saying sorry. I’m sorry for a lack of focus, for letting my desire to me known become greater then my desire to serve him.
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I totally know what you’re talking about. In the blogging world, we can get obsessed with how many pageviews and followers we have or need. When what really matters is sharing the love of God and using the gifts we’re given (like writing) to share that. I recommend reading the book “Anything: the prayer that unlocked my God and my Soul”.
thank you for your bold honesty! what a beautiful desire– to know Him and make Him known.
I think to be known in the blogging world needs patience and a lot of hard work. Some blogs I have visited aren’t so big, but I love the engagement of readers with the blogger through thoughtful and interesting comments. Keep up with the good work! Good luck!