I’ve been trying to find the words to explain to you why I’ve been missing, but what I can share is that for the first time in a long time I feel like I’m not sitting in a cloud of fog. What was suppose to be a week break turned into a couple of months. It wasn’t what I intended, but I realize how much it was needed. I am officially a college graduate now! It’s been two weeks and I don’t think it’s fully set in, something deep inside of me still feels like I’m going to go back. That I’ll see my professors and I’ll walk around that campus like it home again, but that season is over.

So I wanted to reconnect and let you know that I am still alive! That I still plan on blogging and using this space. I can’t promise that I’ll blog everyday but I can promise you will see more of me and you will be seeing lots of changes over the next couple of months.

I look forward to getting back in the swing of things, and I love you guys. If I have any followers still left hello there and I’m back!

I just started crying the other day. Every part of life seemed to overwhelm me and I don’t know how to deal with it. I have been foggy lately, and I am sorry for that. It effects my blog, my work and everything in between, but no one warned me that college happens so fast, and that life no matter how slow you want it to go quickly gets fast with time. I have less then two months until I graduate college. My cap and gown are purchased, and plane tickets bought from my parents. I feel like I’m being dragged through this last semester with my eyes closes. I am holding on to my dear friends for life, trying to figure out how to keep them because I don’t want to lose their presence. I am around people that inspire me on a daily basic, and though I don’t voice enough how much I value these relationships I am regretting not valuing them sooner. Because I will never have this moment again, and that is a daunting thing to think of.

Yes I do cry often, mostly when I know something is ending. Moments never happen again, even if you try to recreate something perfectly it’s not the same. So when I know something is ending, I cry. Out of happiness for what happened, out of sadness because I’m saying goodbye and I begin this weird mix of emotions that just bring me to tears.

So am I happy to graduate, of course! I will be a college graduate, but I’m also sad to say goodbye. College has been wonderful, and it’s bittersweet to end this chapter of life.

So for the next weeks I go back to this job hunting thing, I sheepishly wander website to website and hope that the prefect one will fall in my hands. I need prayers guys, and with that being said I’m taking the week off blogging, I can’t put the effect I need to into it and just have been more discouraged with blogging then anything. So please forgive me with a silent week. I’ll be back next monday.

With all my love,
Amanda